hangin' in there...

which is what i'm supposed to do, apparently... :) what i'm supposed to be feeling: grateful these babies aren't here yet, grateful for the time that all i have to do is lie in bed and do nothing but surf the internet and watch bad TV (seriously, so bad), taking advantage of this time because in a few weeks, all i'll want to do is lie around, and so on and so forth... what i'm actually feeling: incredibly grateful that these babies aren't here yet, and so FREAKING stir-crazy that i'm about to lose my mind!!! i am happy for my many doctor's appointments/non-stress tests, because at least those get me out of the house. but what's inside the house is what's driving me nuts- mainly the nursery, i think. i'd like to not think of myself as a control freak, and i don't necessarily think i'm a 'freak' about it, but i think all wives/mamas kind of have a certain way of having things, and husbands/daddies just go along with it... for those of you who know bryan, you all know that he just kind of goes along with most everything. :) so the fact now that i have to sit/lie in bed and relinquish all control over how certain things are going to be in the babies' room is just a tad difficult. it's just little things, mainly: for instance, bryan wanted to get a radio/cd player for their room "so we can play them baby Radiohead and baby Beatles" (thank you again, auntie mel). so he got a wall mountable one and put it over the changing table. it looks great, but it's off-centered between the doorway and the closet door. i'm assuming that happened because the changing table is off-centered between the doorway and the closet door, and the radio is centered from the table!!! something that could have easily been avoided if i could have seen the off-centered-ness of it all... ok, so maybe i am a freak about it... but no worries, we're not fixing it, we're just going to off-set it with a basket of diapers or a diaper pail or something, and mama will be fine. just little things that i have to get over, and i will, because he is so great for doing all of it with a smile on his face and no complaining whatsoever... seriously, best husband ever.